4.28.2008

friday night after

performance
crying
declaration in head:
never again will i bother performing

never never never.it is for me only, right?

why did i give so much attention to the audience, when they did not give me any?
all the gas and time i spent, was for me only. !remember this!
still, why did i hope that the people would offer more appreciation for sharing with them?

this is a shame-laden post.
i should coat this in milkey plastic [so you can not read it].


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the appreciation that i had desired was financial.
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